Psalm 139:14

A day after I wrote "Insecure Rut" I pulled out my 4-year-old's book for Cubbies.  Cubbies is a preschool group under the Awana Club where children participate in art activities, play games, hear puppet stories, and learn about God.  Every week little cubbies have the opportunity to earn patches for their vests by reciting a memory verse.  This week's verse:

"I am wonderfully made."  Psalm 139:14

My confidence and faith is already rising by the simple recitation of this verse. 

Thanks, Cubbies!

Cubbie: Adisson

Insecure Rut

I despise height jokes.  It makes me wonder why people want to tease about something an individual has no control over.  I didn't eat my way into petite stature.  I didn't drink myself into this state.  I was born this way.  Then again, maybe I need to be more humorous and my height is a huge insecurity that I need to get over. 

I used to date a 6' 1" basketball player whose standard of beauty was a 5' 10" model.  Before he came into my life, I thought I was fairly pretty.  After him, I stupidly decided that beauty lies in the height.  How beautiful could a 5' 1" female be?  Every so often I get stuck in this rut where I feel unattractive because I don't fit into the model criteria.  And then I snap out of it.  I need to STOP taking ownership of this insecurity.   

I look at my daughters, already petite in height but astoundingly beautiful, remarkably charming, and surpassing in intelligence.  All I see is beauty written over them.  I never want my children to doubt how wonderful they are because the world says America's Next Top Model is 5' 10" and above.  So why do I doubt how wonderfully made I am?  If I doubt myself in this manner, I'm choosing to take away from one of God's designs.  He is the Artist.  I try to live my life in sincere appreciation of all He's done, all He does, and all He's doing.  That means I need to appreciate what He's done, does, and is doing in me.  Height included. 

1985.

2011.